Caught off Guard

"Musing of a self pitied mind."

There can be no doubt that this possessive clinging to things is one of the most harmful of habits in the life. Because it is natural, it is rarely recognized for the evil that it is. But its outworkings are tragic.
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Let the inquiring Christian trample under foot every slippery trick of his deceitful heart and insist upon frank and open relations with the Lord.
Then he should remember that this is holy business. No careless or casual dealings will suffice. Let him come to God fully determined to be heard. Let him insist that God accept his all, that He take things out of his heart and Himself reign there in power. It may be he will need to become specific, to name things and people by their names one by one. If he will become drastic enough, he can shorten the time of his travail from years to minutes and enter the good land long before his slower brethren who coddle their feelings and insist upon caution in their dealings with God.
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Self pitty [is] one of the most reprehensible sins of the human heart.

a.w. tozer